Fatwa #1135613 April 2004Pakistan
Will my Allah ever gonna forgive me for all that i have done? Help me!!I am masturbating from last 15 years
Question
I am 23 years old and have been the victim of bad society which has costed me my Faith and my health. I am masturbating from last 15 years like i have started doing it at the age when i didn?t know what exactly i was doing and till rite now i am practicing it continuously and with intense frequency everyday. I find it difficult to write that i indulge in illicit physical relations with a Christian girl. every time i had intercourse i used to ask my Lord for forgiveness and promise Him that i wont do it again but whenever came across that girl i simply could not resist myself and commit that major sin again and again. It happened alot of times. I committed this major sin even when i was fasting. The girl got married and this thing even didn?t stop after her marriage like i was still in physical relations with that Christian girl after her marriage and still i find it difficult to control myself whenever i came across her. I am ashamed of being called a Muslim and i know for sure that my Allah is really annoyed with me after all i am breaking my promise again and again. I wonder how should i get out of this devil act. Unfortunately during all this shameful moments of my life i discovered that i am suffering from severe premature ejaculation problem, improper erection and impotence too. Please help me i have lost my religion my health. I need a way out of all this miserable life and is there any cures to all the sexual problems I mentioned earlier?
Answer
You have a major problem. You have committed major sins and have caused%0D%0Adamage to your Imaan and health. Now that you have realised the wrong and%0D%0Aintend reforming yourself, that is encouraging.%0D%0A%0D%0AAllah loves the sincere ones. It is true that Allah gets angry with those%0D%0Athat are sinful but Allah gets more happy with a person who sincerely%0D%0Arepent. First and foremost, be sincere. Nobody can help you if you are not%0D%0Asincere. The intention to reform is the driving force behind reformation.%0D%0AAll that is needed after sincere intention is guidance. If a lost traveller%0D%0Ais put on his route home, he will reach home. All he needs is to travel.%0D%0ASimilarly, you too need to travel a path of reformation and require a guide%0D%0Afor your path to reach your destination. If you choose a proper guide, you%0D%0Awill be successful. Your problems can be solved and you will experience%0D%0Apeace and happiness. You are young and cannot afford wasting your life. If%0D%0Ayou continue like this, be rest assured you will never be happy even while%0D%0Aenjoying some moments of pleasure.%0D%0A%0D%0AWe advise you consult Doctor Saber of Pakistan.%0D%0A%0D%0Aand Allah Ta'ala Knows Best%0D%0A%0D%0AMufti Ebrahim Desai